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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

11 weeks down...5 to go!

Week #11
Mon- cross train/weights
Tue- run 8 miles/cross train
Wed- rest
Thu- run 4 miles/cross train
Fri- weights
Sat- rest
Sun- run 15 miles
Total: 27 miles

I have to say, even though I'm wimping out on how much and how often I should be running each week, I was still amazed to see that I've run 27 miles per week for the last two weeks. Even more cool? According to my exercise journal, over these same two weeks last year- I didn't run a single mile.

I also seem to have found a new technique to getting my behind outside to do a run when every single fiber of my being does not want to- I simply give myself permission to run as slowly and as gingerly as I want. When I first started this two days ago, it was almost laughable. I think each stride I took was about 6 inches long. It really must have looked ridiculous. I think an infant could have crawled past me. But you know- fu** it. 'Cause it worked. I never felt like I was exerting myself, AND I ended up running further than I'd thought I would.

Otherwise, I'm still kind of in the middle of a slump (which entirely has to do with overeating). I started to write yet another horribly depressing post the other day but ended up deleting it, mostly because while I'm (sometimes) willing to bare (part of) my soul here, I'm not super keen about everyone else thinking that all I do is curl up on the sofa, suck on my thumb and weep while Depeche Mode plays in the background (I stopped doing that like, two months ago).

Even though I've been disappointed about how rough things have been, I've had a couple of really good realizations lately. In addition to realizing how overboard I went about last week's race time (which only proves that once again, manic behavior can ruin JUST ABOUT ANYTHING), I've further realized that the quicker I change my attitude toward LA, the better it will be for not just race day, but every day thereafter too.

I wish I could take credit for this latest realization as well, but of course...I cannot. As I've pointed out time and time again, I was not blessed with immense amounts of gray matter. This is not a statement of modesty or humility...I ate glue and paper until around the 2nd or 3rd grade. And even worse, I tried to LIE about it. I told my mother that it was the kid next to me who was taking all those little bites off the top of my folders. (Seeeee...not too bright, eh?)

Anyway, this most recent gem came to me courtesy of a board member my coworkers' introduced me too. I think they were hoping that she would inspire me/cheer me up, and more importantly- distract me long enough so that they could slink away and avoid hearing my 8th melodramatic version that morning about how badly I sucked in the half-marathon.

In any case, this woman, who is probably in her early 50s, has run over thirty marathons. In my typical inquisitive and anal retentive manner, I immediately started to pepper her with a series of logistical and technical questions, all somehow related to reaching my ideal finish time. But here's where she got me. She said, "You know, I really don't pay attention to that (time). I do them for fun and to keep myself motivated. If I didn't have a race in 2-3 months, I wouldn't get out of bed to run. And I've found that if you start setting ambitious goals for yourself, it can become burdensome, and you're more likely to quit doing them. Remember, it's not the 26.2 miles that are actually good for you or your body...it's the hundreds of miles leading up to it."

Ai-yi-yi-yi-yiiiii. So true, so true... She then went on to talk about how the 26.2 was a religious experience for her. Normally, I tune out right around then, mostly because I'm not very religious, and because I rely more on technical preparation to boost my confidence rather than faith. But on this day, I listened. Because I realized she was right. Running a marathon is one of the most grueling things to do in the world. While I may be able to overcome some of the physical challenges (I can endure all the little battlewounds like scabs, blisters, chafing and losing toenails), when I felt horribly sick to my stomach on Sunday...I thought I had to quit. But in my moment of panic and sheer desperation, I didn't call out to my friends, my parents, or even Roy...because they couldn't have helped me. I cried out to God. And at that moment, I realized that in my darkest moments, I always turn to God.

So I think it's a pretty fair assumption that on March 4, 2007, that at more than one point, I will completely run out of gas and want to collapse/throw up/quit. And I'm hoping that at that moment- exhausted, in pain, desperate and alone, that I will turn to him, and he will be able to provide me the strength to finish.

Sunday, January 28, 2007

Whaaaat the...?!!!

If I had to use two words to describe today's half marathon, they would be- "Whaaaaat the...?" (And I sincerely wish I had used those two words instead of the single expletive I blurted out as I bitterly crossed the finish line). The race was basically a mix of good and bad, so I'll give you the crappy stuff first:

(-) I figured that with my increased frequency of runs and my Saturday long runs, that I had the best chance of finally being able to run a sub 2-hour race. I had also run at such a good pace last weekend that I honestly thought a sub 2-hour race was in the bag. As a result, I had been secretly planning on it and couldn't wait to surprise everyone.

Unfortunately, due to either the last-minute race course change (that ended up doubling the number of hills) or just not running my best, I not only failed to break the two-hour time limit, I didn't even come close. I ran it in 2:08, which was 8 minutes shy of goal, and 2 minutes slower than my last race in Santa Barbara. Even though the course was harder, I was so confident with my pace/effort throughout the race that when I looked at the time clock and saw 2:08 my mouth dropped. For a second, I was in complete shock. Then the anger and dismay hit me and that's when the aforementioned classy "F*****k!" escaped my mouth.

(-) I'd also planned on running four miles after the race, but failed to take into account how wiped out I would feel after running 13 miles at race pace. So my 17-miler became a 15-miler. Disappointing.

(-) After today's run, I am genuinely fearful of trying to run 26.2 in a month. I really, really am. I am now sincerely regretting my lazy decision to only run an abbreviated marathon training program. Bad, bad idea...

(-) Wrapping up the bad stuff (I know I sound really negative right now, but bear with me...it gets better)- I had a horrible, painful stomachache for the first 3 miles of the race. It felt like severe menstrual cramps. I usually get a mild nervous stomach for the first 2-3 miles of every race, but this one was by far the worst- I felt like dropping out and laying on the side of the road until Roy caught up so I could ask him to get the car and pick me up. But because I knew the horrible feeling would probably eventually go away, and mostly because I could not bear the thought of having to tell all my coworkers that I had dropped out of the race, I forced myself to go on.

I also made a desperate plea to God for help, and the man upstairs came through. I felt almost instantly better. Contrary to what I thought a few months ago, running more races has not helped to ease my nervous stomach. In fact, it's become worse with each race...but I believe it's because I now place more pressure on myself, whereas the very first time I did a half- I had absolutely no goals and no pressure.

(+) And finally, here is the good part about today's race. After I finished the race I turned around and ran back a mile so that I could run Roy's last mile in with him. As we were finishing, I heard my name being called out by the announcer. Because I had no idea why, as soon as Roy finished, I yelled to him that I would be right back. Once I tentatively approached the announcer's table, they told me that I had placed second in my age group and gave me a 2nd place medal! (This is why I'm wearing two medals instead of just the usual finisher medal that I always chuck in the trash even before we get home).

Winning second place in my age group told me two things:

A) It was a great idea to enter myself in the 95-100 year old age group; and
B) There were only two people in my age group.

Kidding... I will admit that winning 2nd place in my age group made me feel infinitely better (since trust me, I was prepared to mope and sulk the rest of the day).

(+) And finally, here's the second good part. Post run today, I realized that I've completely lost sight of why it is I started running these races. They're about feeling strong, confident and having fun. And sadly, very little about today (my sore, nervous stomach, screaming of the expletive at the finish and loss of confidence) resembled that.

I'm just so grateful that I had this realization today, a month before LA. Because more than any other day- I want it to be fun, relaxed, and pressure-free!

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

The Anatomy of my Vulnerability

Just over a week ago I excitedly wrote about how difficult the last year has been, and how my new outlook on life seemed to be giving me great confidence and happiness. I wrote about how I had spent so much time anxiously worrying and waiting about when I would cave in and overeat next that I was making myself sick with worry and missing out on life. My thought process at the time was that by focusing more on the beauty of each day and pushing away the negative fears, that I would be able to disempower its hold on me.

And I'm sure that I was right. I have no doubt these thoughts and techniques are good ones. Unfortunately, as we all know- just because you desperately want something to be real doesn't make it so. So as you've probably figured out, shortly after writing that entry, I fell off the wagon. Again.

What makes me feel like such a fool is that I *know* I've probably had some form of a wonderful, helpful epiphany like the one above each month. And yet no matter how many I have...I always seem to fall down again. While I know this is fall-down-pick-yourself-back-up-again routine is all part of the process of what I'm going through, it doesn't make it any less frustrating. Each time it happens- part of me feels like such a fool, part of my feels so weak and powerless, and part of me feels sooo disappointed and defeated. It's extremely difficult to accept that despite my very best efforts, that all it takes is a f**ing bag of tortilla chips to bring it all down. Tell me that isn't kind of sad and pathetic.

So I've not had a good run lately. In fact, I think I've overeaten nearly every other day for the past week. I'm now about four pounds up from my low weight, but that doesn't concern me nearly enough as the fact that this has been one of my longest 'bad runs.' Normally after I have a bad or day or two I rebound with a vengence. But this time...I almost seem not to want to care. I feel myself slipping and instead of hitting the gym, all I want to do is eat some chips on the sofa and blank out.

I am of course, concerned. But as always, I will stubbornly hold onto the belief that my life will get better someday. No matter how humiliating and frustrating it is for me to say this- I believe things will get better. I just hope it's soon.

Saturday, January 20, 2007

10 weeks down...6 to go!

Week #10
Mon- cross train/weights
Tue- run 7 miles
Wed- cross train/weights
Thu-run 4 miles
Fri- cross train/weights
Sat- run 16 miles
Sun- cross train
Total: 27 miles

Ahh. Sweet sixteen. The furthest run yet... not to mention one of the fastest (9:22 min/miles). Where the hell did that pace come from?! Once I finished, however, I was pretty wiped out. Not to mention VERY overwhelmed at the thought of having to run another 10 miles. My. God. Honestly. How do people do it?! Based on how I felt after today's run, I think I'm going to have to shoot for a 5:00 hour finish instead of 4:30.

I know I've mentioned the long run routine here before- but there's just something about it that I'll probably want to remember for the rest of my life. The pre-run preparation actually starts the night before, where it's early too bed so I can get around 6:00am. Once I'm up, I quickly toss down 16 oz. of water, a slice of brown bread with peanut butter and a banana. While it's digesting, I start to get dressed (caking my upper body with Body Glide and my face and arms with sunscreen). I also fill my Fuel Belt up with water and Power Gels, test the battery in my MP3 player, and use the bathroom so I won't need to go mid-run (I do hope no one has forgotten what happens to me when I don't...let's just call it the 'Santa Barbara lesson').

Once we open up the garage door and step outside, my first thought is usually, "Holy crap, it's cold" and my second is, "God, this sucks." The run itself is usually a combination of moments of euphoria (running effortlessly, feeling light on my feet and full of energy) and exhaustion (labored breathing, aching knees and heavy, tired legs).

For the most part, it's pleasant. However, there is one thing that always competely freaks me out. It usually happens around miles 10-12, when my hands and fingers are frozen, clumsy and weak. Basically, at some point, I will be unable to put my water flask back into my belt. Though it would take a 5-year old no more than 5 seconds to do so, when it's cold and I'm tired, it can take me an unbelievable 5-10 tries before I'm actually able to do it. Either my thumbs keep collapsing, I drop the bottle, push the bottle in too forcefully and rip the belt off, drop my MP3 player, or accidentally get my shirt twisted in the belt (causing my skin to rub directly on the belt and blister). Today I actually screamed out an exasperated "F**k!!!" at the top of my lungs in the middle of a residential neighborhood because it took me so damn long just to be able to get a bottle back into my belt, and my belt back onto my waist. And as if that 1-2 minute delay wasn't enough, I also dropped another bottle about 10 minutes later and discovered that my (nearly new) Fuel Belt had started to unravel and tear. I was so pissed off that I practically teared up in rage and wanted to fling the belt across the road.

While that experience sucked, I actually got to experience one of the most priceless runs ever, today. Roy had been speedwalking (11:30 min/miles) and managed to finish his 12 miles at the exact same time that I finished running 15. Because he knew I had one more to go, he eagerly offered to run alongside me (painful for him) for my final mile. So for the entire last mile, we ran side by side, completely in sync, without a saying a word. It was a moment of intimacy that was simply undescribable and completely unexpected (since he generally cannot run). Even though we were both exhausted, we probably ran that last mile in less than 9 minutes. And once we finished, we both smiled and exchanged a high five.

Because we have such different bodies and strengths, we're rarely able to share moments of physical accomplishment together. In fact, I've long since abandoned my dream of ever being able to cross a finish line together...but today gave me a ray of hope.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

A look back

Okay, I think I've finally gotten it all out of my system- no more bragging about Focker's speech, Focker's graduation, Focker's graduation parties, our vacation... I promise.

It's time to get focused. Get back to business. And what better way to kick off 2007 than to reassess where I'm at and where I'm headed- physically, psychologically and spiritually (YES...I do have a spiritual side. Sort of. Well maybe not.).

PHYSICALLY
(-) Still up a few pounds from my all-time low.
(-) Still got that big 'ol tummy roll & chubby thighs.
(-) Still wimping out on the recommended training runs.
(-) Still run like a tortoise out there.

(+) I've in the best shape I've been in my entire life.
(+) My diet has never been healthier.
(+) I haven't gotten sick in 2 years.
(+) My long runs are up to 15 miles!
(+) I just got my confirmation card for the LA Marathon! Surreal.
(+) I am motivated to work out and almost kinda like it!
(+) I've maintained my 55-lb. weight loss.

Summary: In less than 2 weeks, I will be running in the very first half-marathon I ever entered. When I did it last year, I did it mostly for kicks. Who'd have ever guessed I'd become addicted? I walked 3/4 of it and finished in just over 3 hours. For those of you who have no frame of reference- there were only 250 people in the race...I counted thirty 60 & 70-year olds that beat me. My goal this year? Run the whole thing, finish an hour faster, and once I'm finished- run another 4 miles (since it's my 17-mile long run day). How's that for progress? ;-)

Future Goals: Run the marathon. Continue to run half-marathons regularly. Maintain the weight loss and healthier lifestyle. Lose the tummy fat roll (it gets sweaty in the summer). Do a lot more hiking. Start biking. Walk marathons with Roy. Spin my behind off.

PSYCHOLOGICALLY
(-) Still overeat at least once a week. Always disappointing.
(-) Still focus too much on health and fitness (need better life-balance).
(-) Still paranoid about gaining weight.

(+) Have reduced overeating/binge eating a little.
(+) Significantly less obsessed/miserable/paranoid/depressed about my weight.
(+) Happier than I've been in weeks, months...
(+) After four years, Roy will be working F/T again...less anxiety.

Summary: For much of the last 8-10 months, I was miserable, scared and depressed. More than I probably ever let on. I think I entered into borderline eating disorder territory. Eating, calories, food and the scale were my life. It's a little too soon to say I'll never 'go there' again (since I haven't even managed to figure out when or why I started to get better), but I will say that I'm a hell of a lot better than I was even two months ago. While it was one of the worst times of my life, it has given me more empathy than I ever dreamed possible, and I'm grateful for it.

Goals: Appreciate my life in the present. Do not fear falling off the wagon. Smile more, complain less. Be less anal. Have less anxiety. Sleep more.

SPIRITUALLY (don't laugh)
(-) I'm not doing the things I believe I was destined to do...yet.
(-) I'm not as giving as I could be...yet.
(-) I don't have a close relationship with God.
(-) I can be very selfish and superficial.
(-) I'm not as nice to certain people as I could be.

(+) I am happier and more content.
(+) I am renewing my vows to my husband on our 10th annivesary!
(+) I am using less of Earth's resources.
(+) I am always trying to be a good wife, sister, daughter and friend.
(+) I am excited about the future.
(+) I have learned that relationships are the most important thing in life.

Summary: This is my weakest area, which is probably stupid, since it's undoubtedly the most rewarding. But ah...I'm working on it (riiight after I finish reading this Us Magazine).

Goals: Adopt or foster a child. Help others who are overweight. Touch other people's lives.

Monday, January 15, 2007

Focker's Speech

Here it is! The first part of Roy's speech was given in his role as Class President (the class thank you's), but the second part was because his class voted him as one of their two speakers for the commencement ceremony.


The Thank You Speech

Good evening. I want to begin today by truly thanking those who made all of this possible: Starbucks Coffee, the donut shop on Magnolia, Hershey’s Candy Company…

Okay, so really, I’m here to thank those who supported us while we struggled through nursing school. And because I don’t want to have a Hillary Swank moment, I would like to begin by thanking my wife, Josie, for supplying me with what she likes to call “my 4-year scholarship.”

Now, if you are a boyfriend, girlfriend, spouse, parent, grandparent, sibling, or child of someone on stage, please stand up and remain standing. If you are a primary instructor, clinical instructor, nursing administrator, or nursing faculty, please stand up and remain standing. If you are a friend, nurse at one of our clinical agencies, or the guy who poured our grande lattes- please stand up and remain standing.

We may be the ones on this stage, but none of this would have happened without all of your support.

Now, Nursing class of 2006, please give them a hand. You're all what truly allowed us to get where we are today. And for that, we thank you.

The Real Focker Speech

If you will indulge me for just a moment, I would like to take a moment to give a representation of how every single person on this stage is feeling right now…

(He walks to the center of the stage, bows his head for a few seconds, and then lifts his fist in the air and lets out a howling scream like you've never heard. Sort of like the sound I make when I see a buffet, only louder and longer and with a lot more fist pumping. He freaks most people out at first, but then the crowd roars and cheers.)

Thank you.

Some of you were probably a little confused when you received your invitation to come here today. Allow me to be a beacon of light to hopefully clarify this situation.…

You are probably somehow related to someone on this stage. I know this may surprise you, but that lump in the corner of your house surrounded by books and piles of notes for much of the last few years is your long lost family member. Feel free to call the milk carton people, because no, your loved one has not been missing, they’ve been in Nursing school.

I would like to share with you some of the wonderful things that we have been doing here in Nursing school, but since I figure that many of you plan on eating afterwards, I probably shouldn’t. Lets just say that many of the things we’ve been doing require two pairs of gloves and the ability to breath through our mouths for a really long time.

To my fellow soon-to-be-nurses, to prepare you for re-emergence into the real world, here are a few bits of information to guide you on your path…

- It is now winter, so it is cold outside. I know the last time you went outside it was warm, but time has passed. Put that speedo away and dust off the winter gear.

- Do not be confused by people calling you on your phone. These are called “friends,” they are what you used to have before you started school. They are going to ask you to do something called “hang out.” This does not involve studying power point lectures or working on care plans. You can leave your notes at home. You may feel a little naked without them for a while, but I have news for you…you’re done with school, AND you don’t have a test next week. (Huge cheers from the graduates here)

- And finally, just to catch you all up:

No it was not a joke, The Terminator really is the Governor of California, Dick Cheney apparently likes to shoot his friends, Mel Gibson is a lunatic and that bit of information that we have all been waiting for with bated breath– Paris and Nicole are friends again!

Now for your friends and family.... As you spend time with your loved one, you may find that they have learned a new language. For example – “So we needed to d/c the IV on the MRSA pt with TB. Then we needed PO meds TID, given via the NG tube, to the OB pt in PTL. After that we needed a TO from the MD for a PRN ASA to prevent DVT’s.” (Again, mad cheering from the graduates here.) My suggestion to you is to just nod your head and smile. Hopefully eventually they will say something that you can understand.

This is a monumental monent for everyone on this stage. For many of us, these last two years have been the most difficult that we have ever had to endure. Care plans, clinicals, lectures, care plans, studying, block labs, mock codes, CAI’s, and did I mention care plans? Yeah, we love those.

To my class, I want to say thank you for allowing me to represent you as your President. We have come so far from our beginnings in Nursing school. We have studied together, cried together, and supported each other to make it up to this stage today. Congratulations, because now- you really are the nurse. Should I ever, godforbid, need nursing care, I would be honored to have any one of you be my nurse (just promise me that you will be extra gentle with that foley catheter).

So as we go from here today and you begin your new lives, I will leave you with an old Irish Proverb…

May you live a long life
Full of gladness and health,
With a pocket full of gold
As the least of you wealth.
May the dreams you hold dearest,
Be those which come true,
The kindness you spread,
Keep returning to you.

Thank you.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

The Focker Celebrations (a wee bit late)

Because my brother Joseph and I both suffer from middle-child syndrome (this is why I like to think we're louder, brasher and more full of sh**), we made sure Roy had plen-ty of attention when when he graduated last month. Between Joseph and I, we threw him three parties that resulted in a week long celebration (and he deserved them, his speech rocked the house that night...oops, I just remembered I've been asked to post it).

The first photo is from party #1. Roy was the only one in his class with flower leis because according to all of the florists I called, it's 'too difficult and expensive' to make leis in the winter. Thankfully, my brother found some in Orange County (and we wonder they have their own tv show and we do not) and my mother mailed a beautiful kukui nut one. At the point this picture was taken, he had already given away all of his candy leis to some kids (these were my own lame contribution since I was too cheap to pay $40 for a fragrance-free orchid lei). You may also see that we are laughing candidly and freely. Take note- this is the LAST time we are laughing together, as party #3 was not quite as much fun due to the overbearing presence of the Party Nazi (more on this later).

Photo #2 is of the food served at the second party, thrown by Joseph. This party was without a doubt, the most fun. Mostly because the food we ate was our favorite (Hawaiian and Japanese), the Party Nazi (me) was not in charge of this one, this was the night we gave Joseph his main Christmas present (a Breathalyzer...he's used it more in the last month than a CHIP officer) and because Roy had a few and injured himself (see pictures at bottom).

As I've mentioned in the past, Joseph and I have a fine tradition of angrily challenging each other a series of rowdy, obnoxious competitions. On this particular night, Roy foolishly decided to participate (like most others, he usually opts to decline). He did forgo both the High Kick Competition and the Back Bend Competition, but entered the High Jump contest (this involves jumping straight up onto the dining room table...which was was very, very difficult, I might add). I failed to execute by about a foot. Roy missed by about the same amount, only he also took a running start and slammed his shin bone straight into the top of the dining room table (Joseph made a clean sweep that night).

And finally folks, we have party #3. The larger, more formal affair...the one where the Party Nazi (and that would be me) pretty much barked and ordered everyone around for two days, just so that everything could be be *absolutely perfect* on the Big Day (nevermind that everyone who helped me set up and cook was beyond miserable). Except it still wasn't exactly perfect...since I was still wearing my Hello Kitty pajamas and baking for a solid hour after guests arrrived.

Of all the food we prepared that night, I was most proud of my holiday cupcake display and the three varieties of Christmas bark (lemondrop, peppermint and caramelized walnut).

So as promised- here are a few photos of the latest round of competition. The first is during the warm up of the High Kick Contest (Joseph still won...he's one helluva inflexible but highly competitive bastard!). The second photo is of me icing Roy's wound while he screamed like a woman giving birth for five straight minutes before abruptly deciding it was time to go home.

Thankfully, even though he had a large, nasty bright blue bruise and a semi-permanent dent in his pale, skinny, white shin bone, he was still able to hobble around and carry all our suitcases a few days alter (my main concern).

So yeah. the holidays and post-graduation celebrations are over. And I'm a little sad (no gets more excited when buying new chafing dishes).












Saturday, January 13, 2007

9 weeks down...7 to go!

Week #5 (week before vac.)
Mon- run 3 miles/cross train
Tue- cross train/weights
Wed- cross train
Thu-run 5 miles/cross train
Fri- rest
Sat- run 14 miles
Sun- cross train/weights
Total: 22 miles

Week #6 (1st week of vac)
Mon- run 5 miles/weights
Tue- cross train
Wed- run 2 miles
Thu- rest
Fri- rest
Sat- run 3 miles
Sun- walk 2 miles
Total: 10 miles (cripes!)

Week #7 (2nd week of vac)
Mon- run 8 miles/walk 2 miles
Tue- walk 4 miles
Wed- walk 3 miles
Thu- run 12 miles
Fri- walk 3 miles
Sat- run 2 miles/cross train
Sun- walk 2 miles
Total: 22 miles

Week #8 (last days of vac)
Mon- rest
Tue- rest
Wed- cross train
Thu- cross train
Fri- cross train
Sat- run 13 miles
Sun- cross train
Total: 13 miles (cripes again!)

Week #9 (this week)
Mon- cross train/weights
Tue- run 4 miles/weights
Wed- cross train/weights
Thu- run 5 miles/cross train
Fri- rest
Sat- 15 mile run
Sun- cross train
Total: 24 miles

Quick Hits Summary-

  • It's been a month since I last posted about my training runs, so here's all the catch up. Not very pretty...two of the three weeks we were gone were pretty atrocious. Thankfully, even though I fell off the wagon on Friday and Saturday evenings this week, I am feeling pretty good about myself (who can stop eating smoked gouda cheese, roasted almonds and Hungarian cheesecake anyway?).
  • We've been enjoying an even warmer than usual California winter this year- highs in the 80s until last week. It's been heavenly, but apparently God has decided enough is enough (he already gave us Disneyland after all). On Friday it snowed. And on the last two weekends, I've been running on icy sidewalks. You have to understand, seeing things like that are always going to be very fascinating to former Hawaiians...but then again, I've learned A LOT since I moved here. Like you can buy apples for less than $3.99 a pound, your car can go faster than 40 mph, and not everyone thinks clocking out at 2pm on 'Aloha Friday' is a God-given right.
  • By the way, the picture above is of me with my once-a-month running partner Dave (Roy's brother). He's normally a powerlifter/strongman competitor (which means I can probably out bench him...provided he doesn't bench more than thirteen pounds), but has decided to enter LA with me.
  • Yesterday's run was awesome (15 miles over 2.5 hours). Not only was it one of my longest runs ever, but I also saw icicles! I've run 15 miles before, but it was only once and it was back in mid-October of last year when I was mad (anger is fuel). When I ran it then, I remember that my knees started to ache and my legs started to feel really heavy around mile 13. However, thanks to some serious fat reserves, a good night's sleep and better training, that didn't happen this time. I actually felt great during the run and probably could've done a few more miles.
  • After a 6-month hiatus from the world of exercise, newly annointed Nurse Focker (aka Roy/my man/my baby daddy) is back! He has joined a gym and did his first long walk with Dave and I yesterday. Though he managed to do very well (10 miles), it is probably best that you not mention the word chafing to him right now, nor should you ask why he is waddling around like someone inserted an object into his rectum.
  • According to all of the books I have, my weekly mileage should be in the mid-30s right now. It's fairly obvious I am far short of that, which is why I won't be crossing that finish line with a sub 4-hour race time, or even a sub 4.5 hour race time. But honestly, it's a price I am willing to pay. Running more each week would break my spirit. While I continue to have euphoric moments where I feel like I'm effortlessly gliding each week- running is still no where NEAR being an addiction or great love for me. It's not about the journey...it's more about the sense of accomplishment once I'm done (since no one seems to be as impressed by my other accomplishments, such as color-coding my new year's resolutions, or eating 6 spam musubis in one sitting).

Friday, January 12, 2007

New Year...New Attitude (I hope)

I've been dying to write about how I did on the trip but haven't gotten around to it mostly because I was kind of mortified. My goals pre-trip were simple:

1. Do not pig out (I gained five pounds in 2 weeks).
2. Maintain my training schedule (I did exactly ONE good run over 2 weeks).

So yeah, I sucked. Was I disappointed in myself? Uhh...yeaaaah! Especially since I initially weighed in at more than EIGHT pounds heavier than when I left. Thankfully, three of those pounds appeared to be water retention. In any case, I was freaked out. It takes me about 6 months to lose 5 pounds...but I only needed 2 weeks to gain it?!!! Man. How sad.

Whenever I gain a decent amount of weight, I usually need 2-3 days to let the shock, fear and self pity wear off. And then once that's done, I enter into my 'blast-the-fat-feel-the-burn-ain't-nothing-gonna-break-my-stride-ain't nothing-gonna-hold-me-down' phase. So for the past week, I've been increasing the intensity and frequency of my workouts (and have already lost half of the 5 pounds I gained). Frankly, I'm so relieved by how quickly I lost that weight that I could give a rats a** about still being a few pounds heavier than when I left. I let the scale and my warped mind control me for so much of 2006 that all I want to do is focus on living as normal a life as possible in 2007!!!

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

New Years Eve in the NYC!

Thinking about planning a last minute trip to NYC for New Years Eve? Whooooa nelly...not easy. About one million people cram into the Square each year even though the long wait out in the streets is usually freezing, cramped and chaotic. And because we waited until the eleventh hour to book our trip, the other 999,998 people booked everything else before we got there.

Plan A was to make a late dinner reservation at one of the many restaurants lining the street. We knew it would be costly (most places we called quoted us around $250 per person), but we'd hoped it would allow us to be warm all evening with access to a restroom, and then still be able to run out into the street at the stroke of midnight to see the ball drop and party like rock stars. Ha. Ha. Ha. There was not even a prayer of that happenning. We spent days calling around weeks before we got there and had no luck, so we figured we'd pound the pavement once we got there.. We spent 3-4 hours conducting a door-to-door search over a 500-800 yard radius of the ball and learned that while there are a ton of places to eat at in and around the square, precious few have an actual view of the ball, and most were either closed for the evening or charging a lot more than $250 per person. We also learned that none of them are really able to allow people out into the street for the ball drop (all of the streets are cordoned off and patrolled by the police for safety reasons). So the thought of paying $500-700 for dinner with no actual view of the ball (unless we chose to assault an NYPD officer) was depressing.

We were, however, lucky enough to get two less expensive dinner reservations (as back-up plans) that were not too far from the ball. Neither had a view, and neither were very desirable- the first was for an 8:30 dinner at a Flemish pub (those Flems really know how to party), and the second was at 10:30, but at a snotty French restaurant (I just can't ring in the new year without my escargot). But the benefit of having them granted us the precious pass(es) that would have at least allowed us pass the police blockades into the square's general vicinity once it filled up.

Plan B was to spluge on a hotel room with a balcony overlooking the action. Unfortunately, as most New Yorkers will tell you, most rooms with a view (again, not many, as most buildings in the square are office buildings, stores or restaurants) are booked a year or more in advance and run well over $1,000. In fact, just finding a decent room ANYWHERE in Manhattan at that time of the year for less than $400 a night was quite a challenge...never mind finding something in the Square.

Plan C was to beg and pay off the concierge staff at higher end hotels who have been known to make miracles happen. We went to two of them and were politely told something along the lines of this, "You two look reasonably intelligent. So what made you wake up this morning and decide to smoke crack?! Look, unless you have about $15,000 it's not gonna happen. And who let you two in here anyway? You're from WHERE in California?! Is THAT a Glock in your jacket?! Someone call security." So that didn't work so well either.

As a result, we were left with Plan D, which was to tough it out the streets. Now you all might think that I look extremely street tough and all that, so it may surprise you to know that I am actually not. Yes! I promise. It's true. I close my eyes at scary movies, weep watching Oprah, duck and flinch if anyone moves too quickly near me, and have yet to throw a real punch. Sooo yeah, kind of a chicken more than anything else.

What makes Plan D interesting is that even if you do get there early enough (around 2-3pm) to nab one of the highly coveted spots in the heart of the square with a view of the ball/all the entertainment- well, you're stuck there until the ball drops. That means you can't leave to eat, drink or use the bathroom. You're crammed standing up into a corral/pen with about 500-1000 of your closest friends for about 8 hours in the freezing cold. Gotta pee? Tough, toots. Pee your pants or lose your spot.

Our plan to get to town around noon, eat lunch, and then stop eating/drinking at that point so that we could expel every last drop of urine out of our bodies at 3pm before we hit the streets (anyone sitting in the stall at the Hotel Marriott next to me during that time was probably frightened by all the effort and grunting this involved on my part. I, however, feel no guilt about doing that to the Marriott, since they charged me $12 for a small box of Airborne). If for any reason our plan failed and I still ended up having to go later, I had no intention of peeing in the street and or wearing a Depend garment, as I brought a thick white towel from the hotel. (Nooooo worries though, I would have left the maid a HUGE tip.)

So like I said, we got to the square around noon since we were told that they would begin blocking off the streets anywhere from 2-5pm. People were already lining the streets with pillow, chairs, blankets and board games. Right around 3pm the police closed off the street and began setting up the pens. Once that started to happen, the crowds started forming around the pens. Since it's anyone's guess which one will open up first, and from what area they will begin filling them with people. So to some degree, it's like a lottery sytem as to where you will end up. While you can kind of control where you'll get to stand within the square itself, you'll have no idea if you will be allowed one of the 'prime' positons in the center of street near the stages and more importantly- closer to the free party goodies they pass out throughout the evening (hats, pom poms, balloons, etc.). Though most of the free stuff is kinda of hideous (since they're free and plastered with sponsor information), at that moment in time- they become the equivalent of beads at Mardi Gras (you'd flash yourself to get some).

We chose to try and position ourselves about 150 yards away from 1 Times Square so that we could actually see the ball and be closer to the stages (the better to see the artists perform). Nonetheless, it's always a little nervewracking trying to position yourself when there are thousands of others trying to fight their way into the same prime pens. Fortunately, we got into the one we wanted pen and were only 2-3 rows back from edge of the street (if you're 10-20 rows in, it's harder to get the goodies).

Once we got into the pen, it was a little awkward standing so close to so many strangers knowing that HAD to get along, since we were trapped together for the next EIGHT hours. Because no large bags or backpacks were allowed in, you couldn't easily pack anything to occupy yourselves (books, games), and it would have been too tight/crushing to do anything either. So for the next 6-7 hours we all eagerly chatted each other up. I say 6-7 hours and not 8 because by about hour 7, we were all completely over talking to each other and were more or less helping to hold each other up.

One unexpected surprise that made the experience fun was that from about 7 or 8 pm, we did a 'practice' countdown every hour- which meant we all shouted/counted down together, fireworks would go off, and confetti would drop (this last part NEVER got old for me). Another surprise is that from pretty early on into the evening, we got to hear each performer (Three 6 Mafia, My Chemical Romance, Chris Daughtry, Christina Aguilera, Toni Braxton, etc.) rehearse their songs a few times each (some more than others...I was ready to rip the microphone out of My Chemical Romance's hands and sing the damn song myself after hearing them sing the same song three times in a row).

For the most part- between the rehearsals, fake countdowns, celebrity interviews (Roy is desperately in love with Hayden Panatieri from Heroes who was about 10 yards away from us talking with Carson Daly), free goodies being handed out, chatting up our neighors, etc.- the night really went by fairly quickly. And more importantly, granny's bladder held up! Once the final countdown started, we screamed, hollered, kissed and danced like everyone else. But the best moment of all was not when that ball dropped, it was when all that confetti rained down on us and 'New York New York' played. THAT made it all worthwhile.

The stampede to the subways was slightly less fun (we snarfed down hotdogs while slwoly shuffling with the herd out of there), but we managed to make it home in half the time we thought it would (in our room by 2:00am). Later that evening we both swore we'd never do it again, but heh heh...enough time has passed and I'm already making plans to do it again! ;-)


Happy New Year!!!

Sunday, January 07, 2007

The New York Pics

The city of New Yawk...gotta love it. Home to the most ethnically diverse community on Earth, and more importantly- the best food on Earth. If you visit the city of New York and do not return home *at least* five pounds heavier (oh and I DID), well then you have utterly, completely, miserably failed to appreciate all the city has to offer.

Because we did a lot of sightseeing there on our last trip, we were able to just to soak it all in this time around. Our first stop in Manhattan was still the same though- FAO Schwarz (one of the greatest places on Earth...which would be even better if all the damned kids would get out of my way). I needed a new bike and thank God- I found one! All the other kids in the neighborhood are soooo jealous of me now. Take that for not sharing your Square Bob Spongepants with me, you little bastards!!!

Unfortunately, while I was there- a nasty old pervert dressed up as Santa Claus grabbed me in the a**. Roy became enraged and punched him in the face, but his head scattered everywhere (how were we supposed to know he was made of Legos?).

Being in NYC for the holidays was everything I dreamed it would be. Rockefeller Center blew me away- the tree was probably TWO TIMES bigger and taller than I'd ever imagined, and the decor all over the city was amazing!

Even though the city was about 10 degrees warmer than it usually is at this time of year- your Hawaiian homegirl was freezing her nuts off. I was wearing a wool hat, two pairs of gloves, two pairs of socks, boots, long underwear, a sweater, two jackets- and still frozen solid. Most New Yorkers (wearing at most, a light jacket and a perhaps a scarf) just looked at me with a mixture of awe and disgust as I melodramatically chattered and whined about the cold (until of course, I saw a McDonalds...in which case I had to go in and get an ice cold Snickers McFlurry. I lost count at three.)

While in the city we spent a half day just walking around Central Park, touring the United Nations (Kofi Annan's last day on the job) and for the most part- pretty much planning for New Years Eve (a blog entry in and of itself).

I love New York. I really, really do. And the best part is...it's next on the list of cities we have to live in before we die:

Hawaii - done!
Kyoto - done!
California - done!
New York
London
Somewhere-in-Africa





Saturday, January 06, 2007

The South Beach Pics

This may come as a complete shock to most of you, but I happen to have about the same level of appreciation for architecture as that of a 2-year old...meaning that unless the building is either really, really tall or really, really sparkly, I get bored in about 2 minutes.

So it was somewhat of a surprise to me that Miami's South Beach art deco district absolutely fascinated me, starting with all of those funky lifeguard towers lined up along the beach.

I had to limit our photos to our top five favorites since all of them (dozens) were so cool.

I was also fascinated by both the new and original art deco designed buildings.

Because we were in the heart of South Beach we walked around each night just so we could take in all the neon lights and walk along the boardwalk. It was all very, very relaxing and made me want to live in South Beach, that is, until I woke up the next morning and began sweating and whining simultaneously.

And finally, the last picture is of Roy in our hotel lobby. I really wanted to be in the picture, but Roy had to patiently explain to me that only a white man could be in the Whitelaw Hotel's white lobby (aww...shucks).

Overall, we liked it. It had just the right amount of retro funk, free stiff drinks during happy hour each night, and a very ethnically diverse staff. On our third night there, however, we suddenly found ourselves staying next door to what we called 'the goddamn Spanish football team' (about 6 young, rowdy obnoxious drunks from Spain). At one point, they were running up and down the halls, howling and body slamming each other into the walls.

It took Great Aunt Jo all of about 10 minutes before she decided to ruin all their fun and complain to the Front Desk. If you've never heard a lone Romanian front desk clerk with limited English try to quiet down a rowdy, drunken Spanish football team, well- you're missing out. We listened to the brief, somewhat terrifying exchange (we feared for the footballers lives, for we all know exactly how dissent is handled in countries like Romania and North Korea) but were pleased that not only was he able to shut them up instantly, but also for the rest of our entire stay. Rock on hardline socialist/communist regimes!

We also drove down to the beautiful, crystal clear waters off the Florida Keys and up to the Everglades, but between you and me, it's Miami's South Beach that really shines. Between the architecture, the white sandy beaches, the laid back atmosphere, open-air dining each night, incredible hotels (the Delano and Hotel Victor made me drool), delicious Cuban fare and the boardwalk...well, I can see why so many choose to call it home.

Thursday, January 04, 2007

The Caribbean Pics

Guess I'm no longer quite the young whippersnapper I once was. It's been a few days since we've returned and I've been too tired to post any trip pictures or produce any of my usual snarky trip commentary. I promise, it's forthcoming though (trust me, Auntie Jo lives for these types of things).

In the meantime, here are a few of my favorite pics from the Caribbean part of our trip.

At the Costa Maya Mayan ruins in Mexico...for whatever reason- just like the Pyramids of Giza, tourists are allowed to trample up the first so many steps of the pyramids. I suppose I could have exercised a little class and restraint by declining to step up on them myself, but that would've been, well...very uncharacteristic, don't you think?

Swimming with stingrays off the coast of Grand Cayman island...I was initially very scared and kept letting go of them (they're heavy, slippery and strangely enough...not thrilled about being held by petrified Asians screaming at their husbands to hurry up and take the damn picture). So while this photo may show a very happy, exhilirated Josie, what you cannot see is that she is rapidly emptying her bladder into the crystal clear waters of the Caribbean.

We met a man in Jamaica that was like, TEN FEET TALL!!! Other tourists kept whispering that he was wearing stilts, but come on! I know that's just crazy talk.

Noooo, I am not stoned. But I am being obnoxious. After hearing one too many Bob Marley songs, I decided to just roll with it and bust out my wicked rastafarian skanking skills. I don't know about you, but I'm pretty sure Bob would be proud.

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Akemashite omedettou gozaimasu!

I successfully learned about seven phrases in Japan over three years. Today's subject title is one of them (Happy New Year). The other phrases are pretty standard stuff like "Can I have another serving please?" and "You call THAT a serving?! Look at me!!! Load that plate up, bee-otch!"

So we're back. We survived. And I do mean survived. Our final flight home was without a doubt, one of the scariest flights I've ever taken in my entire life (and I think I've taken somewhere in the neighborhood of about 350 flights). I thought we were gonna crash. The turbulence was absolutely terrifying. The plane kept shuddering, rocking and nose diving. I was convinced the plane was malfunctioning and the pilot was lying to us (by saying it was just wind). People were hurling all around us. Roy & I were both white knuckled, cold sweating and clutching air sickness bags ourselves. Thankfully, the scary flight was the worst of it, the trip itself was awesome. Times Square on New Years Eve was hot (especially since we weren't annihilated for killing Saddam Hussein the night before...very freaky). But honestly- just being in vibrant, colorful New York City during the holidays was even better... Plenty of neat pics and stories to tell. Time for bed though. More tomorrow, promise!